ok, so i'm going in reverse chronological order, and this one also deals with food.
example #2.
[relevant background] so as i mentioned in the last post. grades came out on friday. i dont know how to express my feelings with a sound spelled out into a word or an emoticon. maybe --> :*/ ? i'm not sure. anyway, it has been an interesting thing to go through. and one thing i'm learning is how to just be ok without resolving everything right now. truthfully, i don't know exactly how i feel about grades, and that would normally kill me! i just want to know how i feel about things. but i'm ok with not knowing for now and just being and embracing "now," even if it's not complete.
[example of love and thus why i am grateful] all of our professors know it's a really stressful time for us and have talked to us about how grades don't matter and we shouldn't let it get to us and yes probably 90% of us will be disappointed, etc, etc. but one professor, professor jones, to celebrate our "hump day" (the day that we are officially done with the first semester of our first year) decided to make us cookies--camel cookies, with humps of course. and they are frosted with a cute saddle--all different colored saddles. i picked the colorful one bc i like a variety of colors! and i just thought it was really nice. she definitely didn't have to do it, and it took the stress off and made me feel like a little kid in some ways.
[conclusion] another example of love and true concern.
so i really should be either sleeping or studying, but i just had to (or wanted to) write some things down.
i am so incredibly grateful. how does the Lord know? he is so aware of us and there are so many evidences of his love in my life.
example #1. i used to think i knew a lot about love/had a lot of love/showed a lot of love, not that i don't think that anymore, but the emphasis i guess recently is i've been realizing how much love i see in the people around me. i am grateful for their examples that show me in so many different and unique ways what love is. so i'm not a sugar eater, as most people know, but lately i've been having this sweet tooth.. perhaps it is bc our grades came out and i dont know other stresses that have just been building up i guess. and my neighbor and visiting teacher just happens to be a wonderful baker and when she came over on sunday she said she had made cinnamon rolls. ooo i love cinnamon rolls. and she had one left. i wanted to eat one (i had actually just went to kneaders last week and gotten one and it was SO good), but i decided to resist. well today, oh boy i wanted a cinnamon roll. so i get home and walk next door (well actually i dont even have to walk bc they are literally ONE step away), and i knock and ask if brianna is home. she's not home. and then i ask her roommate katy if she knows if there are any cinnamon rolls left.. nope. darn. well that's ok. it was probably better that i don't eat them anyway!
so i go and i exercise and i try to work on a few things, and then i come home and guess what i see on the kitchen table. a plate of cinnamon rolls.
i just felt so much love. brianna, who i KNOW is busy herself, heard from her roommate that i came over asking for cinnamon rolls, and so she made some for me. though i am def grateful for the yummy cinnamon rolls i will be partaking of soon, the even more meaningful part to me is her love and what i am able to learn through her example of love to me.
