embracing pieces of truth. :)

"Go to sleep in peace, God is awake." -Victor Hugo

lessons and arbinger

a few days ago while i was exercising i was also reading the bonds that make us free. i actually have never read the entire book before, but i really love arbinger in general and terry warner! there are so many good parts but something that i wanted to share in particular is about the process of progression and selfishness. here's what he says...


some of us who are seeking to maintain ourselves in our new, more open way of being get tripped up by our anxiety to measure our progress [so true! i know i do that:)]. we want to know how we're doing. but worrying too much about such things means we're probably still too self-absorbed to maintain whatever change of heart we may have experienced. . . .


there's nothing wrong with goals so long as we don't pursue them to prove we're something we're not. but turning the maintenance of the change of heart into a project with measurable steps of achievement usually requires a pretty heavy focus on oneself. this produces a counterfeit of change. 


what then do we focus on if not a goal? part of the answer is we do not think of ourselves as a "force on the move" toward some important objective. instead, we feel still, inwardly still.


ask yourself, who is the person i really need to be? is it a being who can come into existence ONLY by determined, gritty effort? No. on reflection it is more likely we will see the person i need to be is who i am already--or MORE accurately, who i will be IF i cease trying to display myself as worthy and acceptable and thus make myself into a grotesque distortion of who i really am. . . . we become most ourselves, without distortion, when we relax our frantic effort to justify ourselves and allow ourselves to simply be still.


i love arbinger. it's so wise and so right on with things. i don't know a better way to describe it and i don't really feel a need to bc i think "the things speaks for itself." :) another law school thing, sorry i can't help it. it just comes into my head.
you should read this! :)

12 names of christ.

so today i was thinking about something one of my companions told me on my mission. she said while she was at the mtc, and it was christmas time, elder holland came and spoke and talked about 12 names of christ. i don't remember what they all are, although i think i have them written down somewhere, but he picked 12 names and invited the missionaries to take 12 days before christmas to exemplify each of those names. 


what a cool thing. and i dont remember if i got this from myself or my companion but the one and only december of my mission, i guess that was 2009, i thought of 12 different names of christ and found 12 different scriptures, and focused on one each month of the year 2010. it was such a neat experience, and i felt that as i prepared the scriptures and things i wanted to focus on for each month that they all ended up being what i needed.


so anyway, lately, and this is kind of a personal thing, but i've been thinking about things that i struggle with--like those things that ultimately keep me from giving everything, from being so one with christ. one thing is this false idea that i have to be this perfect person in order to be special or of worth. most of the time i think i don't believe that and know it's a lie, and i feel comfortable with myself--imperfections and all--bc i know i'm trying, and i know the lord isn't asking me to be perfect, but that life is such a process and the things we struggle with keep us coming toward christ. BUT sometimes! it just isn't that clear to me and i find myself getting lost in pressures i put on myself to be this perfect person in ways that just aren't realistic. and it is something that i struggle with.


but this morning, while i was studying, i had this great thought. i love great thoughts! and new ideas! they are wonderful and so special to me. but i was thinking about the names of christ and also about the principle of replacing bad things with good things (like the example of removing weeds and doing nothing and the weeds come back vs. removing the weeds and planting flowers and the weeds dont grow back but flower blossom). so i thought about the same thing but involving this name of christ thing. i started looking up names of christ and thinking about this issue and i found a few scriptures. i think i came up with about 3 but ended up feeling really good about this one. it's in romans 15:8.


"now i say that jesus christ was a minister of the circumcision for the truth of god, to confirm the promises made unto the fathers:"


now in all honesty, i don't know exactly what that means, but it really stayed with me, and i especially liked the part about him being a minister for truth, which confirms these promises he has made to our fathers and ultimately to us. and so that is the scripture i'm picking, with the purpose to replace a false lie "i'm only special by the things i do" with this name of christ about a truth that confirms promises.


anyway, i wanted to share that as an invitation to anyone else who would like to also do the 12 names thing. i don't know if i'm doing it all year next year; my plan was to just do it up until christmas, and i think i may do more than just one day for each scripture bc i'm starting before dec. 12. 


i love christmas!!!!!

things as they really are.

food for thought: things as they really are.

"the spirit speaketh the truth and lieth not. wherefore, it speaketh of things as they really are, and of things as they really will be; wherefore, these things are manifested unto us plainly, for the salvation of our souls." -jacob 4:13

"i want to see truth in all its bearings." -joseph smith.

desires to do good.

President George Q. Cannon: “God has reserved spirits for this dispensation who have the courage and determination to face the world, and all the powers of the evil one, visible and invisible, to proclaim the Gospel, and maintain the truth, and establish and build up the Zion of our God, fearless of all consequences. He has sent these spirits in this generation to lay the foundation of Zion never more to be overthrown, and to raise up a seed that will be righteous, and that will honor God, and honor him supremely, and be obedient to him under all circumstances.”

I listened to Elder Bednar share this quote this morning in a talk called, "Things as They Really Are."

What a powerful quote! And so crazy.. WE are among those with "courage and determination to face the world, AND all powers of the evil one.. visible and invisible. Courage and determination to proclaim the gospel, to maintain truth.. and to do so Fearless of all consequences."

Take courage and move forward. The future is as bright as your faith. :)